(This is an experience narrated to me by my friend. He also wanted this to be put in website. As per his wish I have written this. I consider his experience a good one. I also think it is a bit informative on foreskin covering the penis. I have given this in first person narration for better reading)
This happened about 20 years back.
We had a servant maid called Sarasu. She was 35, illiterate and married to a
drunkard whose profession was cutting firewood. She had three small children. She was a very docile and good-natured simple woman and in our house she did allthe work such as cleaning vessels, washing clothes, sweeping and mopping of floors. Daily she will come around 3 pm to do our house work. She used to address me as Brother out of courtesy and affection.
I was then about 20 years old and I was studying in college. I had stated to have sexual feelings and took to masturbating from the age of 14. Though I was regularly masturbating on a daily basis, I had no sexual experience. At that time my penis was fully sheathed by a very tight foreskin and I had not pulled it back by stretching it. While masturbating, I will cup and hold my penis and just by moving my hand and making my foreskin rub on the tip of my cockhead I will get release of my semen.
One day I saw a photo of a man having sex with a woman and noticed his penis shaft was fully exposed and his foreskin was fully pushed back. I had never attained such exposure of my penis shaft. So I thought that to enjoy a woman the penis shaft should be exposed and foreskin should move back. Talking with my friends also confirmed this. They also said that they pull their foreskin fully back exposing their shaft when they are aroused and mastrubate.
So I tried to pull back my foreskin but it wouldn’t go back and I only got severe pain when I tried to do it. I feared that my penis wasprobably defective and I cannot enjoy any woman in my condition. Unfortunately I didn’t know who could guide me in this aspect. So I was all aong nurturing this fear without any solace.
When my sister delivered her baby, my mother went and stayed in my sister’s house for a few months to take care of her and the baby. My father and I were staying alone and we cooked our food. My father usually return home quite late in evening from his office, but I returned from collage home by 2 pm or so. Sarasu continued to come home to do her normal chores.
I thought that I may consult Sarasu on this matter. She had known me for many years and was fond of me. So I felt that I could tell her about my problem and seek her advice. But I didn’t know how to open the topic with her. I was also worried as to how she will react when I talked to her about my sex problem. I felt that though she may not get angry with me, she may refuse to talk with me on that matter any further. So after many days of deliberations finally I decided that I will talk with her on this matter in a round about way; first make her curious about my disability and then seek help from her.
So one day I asked her “Sarasu – can you help me in one matter”. She looked at
me and said “tell me Brother, what is it”. I said “actually I don’t know how to talk about it with you” and she said “Tell me what it is and I will do what is to be done” I said “Can you promise me that you will not go and tell about it to anyone.” She looked at me in surprise and said “I don’t know what is such a secret matter that you want to tell me; but I will not tell it to anybody”.
I shyly said to her “yesterday I went to a prostitute to enjoy myself. Then I found
there was some problem with me”. She looked at me again in surprise and smiled
also. She said “Brother, you know you should not do such things. They will
give you disease. Anyway don’t allow the problem to remain; you go and
immediately see a doctor. I am sure you will get okay”. I hastily said “No. No. I am alright; there is no problem of having any disease with
me”. “Then what is the problem?” she asked.
I said “that woman didn’t allow me to do it to her”. Sarasu smiled and said
“why,you did not pay her what she asked for?” I laughed and said “no, it is no that; actually she said to me that I can’t do it”. With confusion Sarasu asked “do what?” I said with some hesitation and shyness “that lady said I can’t fuck her.” Sarasu asked “why, what is the problem?”. I replied “she said I have defect in my penis and can’t fuck any woman”
Sarasu looked at me in surprise and said “Brother,I don’t understand; but I
know you for sufficient time and I think you should be alright. Don’t take
me wrong but while washing the cloths many times sI have een your underwear and bed clothes carrying semen stains. It shows you are fine, so why you have to worry?” I said “No Sarasu, it is no that, actually I don’t have problem in shooting semen, but she said that my penis has a defect and I would not be able to enjoy a woman; so she sent me away”.
Sarasu quizzically looked at me and said “Brother, I don’t understand how you could have any problem when you can get your semen out. Perhaps she had some problem and she wanted to avoid you that tim; that is why she said some story to send you away. Don’t believe her; just don’t listen to what such kind of people say”
I said “No, she had no problem; actually soon after sending me away she went with another customer. She is a professional prostitute; she had no reason to send me away when I had money to pay her”. Sarasu couldn’t understand what I was saying. She asked “did that woman tell you what excatly was the defect you had?” I replied “No, she didn’t. I asked her but she told me to go and get it explained by some ladies known to me. she soon went inside her hut with another man who came there, this I couldn’t ask her any more”.
Sarasu was now really puzzled and she scratched her head in confusion. She then
said “brother, I don’t understand but my feeling is that she made you to
worry about nothing although I don’t see what she will get out of it”. I said “yes that is what is worrying me also; she fucks any man who will pay her money so why should she deny me unless she saw some defect in me. I don’t understand it and from yesterday I have lost my peace of mind. I cannot sleep or do anything and I think I will go mad with this tension.”
Sarasu said “No, don’t say such things. but I don’t see what defect you can have when you can shoot out semen”. We stood in silence for sometime looking at each other. Then I took some courageand asked her “can you do me a favor?” She said “yes”.”I don’t know which lady to ask, so I am asking you because you know me and you are my well wisher. I just want to show mine to you ,will you take a look at it and tell me what is the defect?”.
Sarasu hesitated for a minute and later said reluctantly ‘alright, show me”. I quickly removed my pants and underwear and stood nude before her. My cock was up and pulsating and it also had become wet at the tip. But my black foreskin tightly covered my shaft. I stood like that before her with shyness. She looked at my pulsating shaft for a minute. Then with a smile she said ” “is it alright, there is no defect” I was relieved. I asked her again, “are you sure there is nothing wrong with me?” She smiled and said ” absoultely no defect, it is fine; if you marry today your wife will be able to
give you a baby in ten months.”
I pointed out to my foreskin and said “but what about my this black skin, it is not going back”. She said “I don’t know what you are talking about; it is like this with every man. It is normal and there is no defect”. I said “but they say this black skin should go back exposing the thandu (Tamil word for the red penis shaft) fully”. She said “I don’t know about it, but yours is like what every other man has; look it is standing up and rocking. That shows that it is ready for enjoying a woman”.
I said “but Sarasu – unless I get this black skin fully back with my thandu fully out, I will not be able to enter a woman’s hole”. She giggled and said “then you just push it back, it will go back”. I said “yes,I tried, but it was very painful and I am unable to push
it back”. She said “then you don’t worry, when you marry and sleep with your
wife it will become okay”. I replied “but how can I marry when I have a fear that this black skin may not go back exposing the thandu for enjoying a woman”.
She looked at me with confusion and said “brother, I do not know what to tell you; but I assure you, yours is alright and you can marry. Yours is no different from that of any other man” I said “then tell me, you have husband ; does his look the same?” She replied
“yes, all same, no difference”. I said “what about his black skin,does it remain in front or goes back exposing his thandu when he does it to you?” She paused for a minute and then said “yes, that skin pushes back when he does it to me”. I asked her “does it happen every time he does you” and she replied “yes”.
I asked her “please think and replywhether his black skin remains like mine till he
inserts it inside or it goes back even before when he gets ready”. I realised that she was getting impatient wiht all my questioning. She said “yes his blakc sking goes backwhen he inserts his thing into me. I don’t know what made me ask her. “Don’t get angry with me — have you slept with any body else other than him”. She hesitated for a moment and replied “brother, I don’t know what to say”. I said “please tell the truth to me, it is only for the purpose of finding out about my defect. I will swear on God that I will not tell about it to anyone else”.
She said “you see, I should not be telling this really, but because I have faith in you I am saying it. I have done it with some other men also but it is all done very secretly. My husband is a drunkard and also not clean in woman matters. I am not happy with him but I cannot leave him. I have three children even if I don’t need him the children need their father, so I have to live with him, But my heart is not with him, so I have done it with some other lovers. But please keep this within you and don’t tell it to any one. It will ruin my life”.
I again assured her that I will maintain absolute secrecy about it. I took the opportunity to ask her more about my problem. “Sarasu, I have tried to push my black skin back and it hurts me. Have you ever have that probelm with any of your lovers?” She blushed and said yes. “How did they overcome the problem?” She was quite for a minute and replied “I helped them to gently push it back.” Then I said to her in a low voice “Sarasu – can you do me one more favour?” She asked me “what?” and I said “when I try to do it I stop it half way when I feel the pain. I will close my eyes, can you push it back for me please?”
She hesitated and said reluctantly to me “I do not know whether it is alright” I said “see, I am totally confused and I do not know from where to get help. I am asking you because you know me very well and you will not take me wrong. I can’t ask any other woman.” She said “okay” and came closer to me and took my penis in her hand. It became more rigid and syarted to pulsate faster with the excitement of her touch. It was the first time a lady’s hand touched me there and her cool fingers touching my penis was the most
satisfying thing to happen to me.
She took my penis and gripping my foreskin she pushed it back. It’s round hole
stretched on my stout cockhead and distended a bit. I got some pain but I bit my
teeth and held my breath. I didn’t close my eyes because I wanted to see it fully. My cockhead slowly peeped out of the hole in the foreskin and the red cockhead first came out a bit. The pain was more intense and I feared the round hole of my foreskin may tear. Fortunately it didn’t happen and its roundness increased exposing more of my cockhead outside. Now I could see the cockhead was halfway out of my foreskin hole but now the hole was more tightly stretched giving a burning pain at the tip of the foreskin.
The pain was in fact unbearable and I almost cried for her to stop it. But I bit
my teeth more tightly and held it. She gently and steadily pushed and now my cockhead was three fourth out. The hole in foreskin had increased very much in diameter and the pain also subsided a bit. Then with some more gentle push she pushed my foreskin over my cockhead and it now stuck out fully from inside my foreskin. The pain dropped down very much even though at the tip of the foreskin some burning was still there. She
pushed the foreskin fully back and now my red shaft was fully exposed.
I had a good view of my naked cockhead and naked shaft for the first time and my heart swelled with joy. At last I was really ready with my cock rigid, foreskin fully back and the red thandu ready for a good fuck. I broadly grinned with happiness and with satisfaction I looked at her with joy. She also smiled and asked “did it pain much?” I said with a grin “somewhat — but I bit my teeth and bore it”. She said “I told you, you shouldn’t have worried at all about it”. I said “I really felt some fear there was a defect in my penis; now I am satisfied”
She smiled and said “see, it is fully okay now. you are now ready for marriage. I will tell your mother to find a good bride for you when she returns from your sister’s house” I laughed and said ‘thank you very much. I was really worried by what that prostitute said. Now you have given me real peace of mind. I will not forget this”
I hesitated for a mement and said “will you do me one more thing?” She looked at me
questioningly. I said “don’t mistake me. but can I really fuck a woman now
without any worry?” She said “brother. don’t worry at all. You are really very fit to do it to an woman and make her pregnant” I said “I will not get real peace of mind unless I am sure of it. But I now don’t want to go to prostitutes to feel certain about it”. She laughed and said “then wait till your marriage. you will really find happiness with your wife”.
Then I said “Sarasu – if you will not get angry can I ask you one more thing”. She said “ask it” and I immediately said “can I try with you?” She looked at me in a way that her look conveyed her confusion, anger and dismay altogether. I hastily said “don’t get angry. I will give you sufficient money” She said “brother, I am sorry you have taken me for prostitute” and I hastily said “No. I will never insult you that way. I didn’t know what to say. Please forgive me”. (She said in Tamil “ennappa thambi – enna oru thevadiyaalukku samama vaichchu pesitttaye – enakku romba varuththamaa irukkuppa”.) (And I said In Tamil “ayyayyo – naan unna kevalama ninaichu pesale – enna pesaradhunnu theriyaama pesittaen – mannichchukko”.)
She said “I am upset by what you said” and I pleaded “please forgive me. I will never think of insulting you. I just wanted to get full confirmation from you that I am totally fit as a man, In my anxiety to clear my doubt, I asked you that. If you will allow me just once, I will get that assuarnce and have the peace of mind. Please forgive me”.
She hesitated and looked at the wall clock. She had to finish our house chores and go to some other house also and already she had remained idle for about 15 minutes in our house. I said “please help me. I will not forget your kindness forever in my life”. She said “brother, I have been delayed already. if I remain with you I will get late for other houses”. I said ” today there is nothing much for washing. you need not sweep or mop the floors as there is no dirt. It will not delay you much”.
Seeing her hesitation I said “see, I cannot sleep unless I am fully convinced
that I am a man in all respect, that is why I asked you. If you refuse then I have to again go to a prostitute for getting my confirmation. I don’t want to go to them and you also said I should not do such thing. So please help me this one time”.
She stood silent and I could not make out anything from her look. Then taking a
little courage I said “Sarasu, if you don’t want it I will not force you, but my mind will be peaceful only if I do it at least once and get convinced that I have absolutely no defect in completely enjoying a woman. I will leave it to you”
She hesitated and said “brother, actually you are fine and there is no defect. But if that is what will set your mind at rest then I don’t know what to do. I only fear what will happen if somebody comes to know about it. Further more, once you taste it, you cannot stop it; you will want it again and again. That is the problem I fear, because you are young and your body and mind cannot keep quiet”.
I said “we are alone, there is no fear. Let me fuck with you just once only to get assured that I am completely alrigh; and then I will never trouble you any more. I promise you.”
She then sighed and removed her sari. She was wearing nothing underneath. She
quickly removed her blouse and stood fully nude before me. I had not expected
her to comply with my request and become completely nude before me in a minute. I stared at her boobs and cunt. Being a worker woman, her body was not very graceful. She was dark colored and her tits were sagging though quite big in size. One breast even looked a little bigger than other. Her nipples were not in shape and they were dark and
flattened. Her cunt was hidden by a bushy dark growth of hair and she had sagging belly. Altogether her body was not very nice to look. But it was the first real nude female body I saw and my cock stood up and ragged with up and down beats with lust building up inside me.
She asked me “brother, shall I lie down here on floor?” and I nodded my head. She lied on the floor and spread her legs wide and raised her knees to position. Now I could see her cunt very well. The cunt lips were sagging and cunthole was also big. I saw her dark asshole and it was ink black actually. Previously I had not seen any real nude woman. I have seen only photos of nude woman. I was keeping two or three such books full of nude women pictures and fucking scenes and I used to see and enjoy them while lying in bed and doing my masturbation. The women in those photos were really nice looking girls with very fine body. They had wonderful looking boobs, cunts and buttocks.
Seeing Sarasu’s nude body before me I gaped at it with eagerness and lust, but I
also hesitated a bit. Her body before me was in no way as good looking as the
nude bodies of those fine women in the photo books. But her body was the first
nude body in real flesh and blood before me and I had both lust and hesitation at the same time and I wondered a bit whether I should fuck her or not. Seeing my hesitation she smiled and asked “what brother, my hole is not to your liking?”. (In Tamil she said “enna thambi – ennoda saamaanum nalla illayaa?). I laughed and said “no, I want it. I just could not believe this”. She said “well you wanted it, now come and do it. Already I am delayed very much, so please don’t delay further”.
I went and knelt between her legs. My cock was beating very fast and I tried to position it on the opening of her hole and push it inside. But somehow in my excitement I did not do it right and it plopped out. She laughed and said “you lie on me and push it inside by pressing with your hip”. She caught my penis and positioned it on her cunt so that I can push it inside. This time I fully inserted and her cunt muscles gripped my cock. I felt the heat of her cunt walls and it was very exhilarating to me. It was the first time my cock was inside a woman and I felt I was on top of the world.
Lying on top her I tried to bang her by moving my cock in and out of her. But I
could not get the rhythm immediately. Again and again my cock slipped out and I pushed it inside to fuck her. She saw my difficulty and laughed and said “why you struggle so much to do such simple act, come, let me help you”. So catching hold of my buttocks she moved me in the correct rhythm so that my cock went in and out of her cunt and I fucked her nicely. With a dozen strokes or so I understood the pace and thereafter I moved fast inside her. I caught her nipples and pinched them very hard and she hissed with pain and passion. Grabbing her balls I squeezed them and massaged them roughly and she cried a bit. I increased my speed and fucked her real fast now.
I don’t know how many times I moved inside her but soon I could not control myself and came to bursting point. My semen boiled inside me and I simply could not hold it any longer. With a loud cry I said “Sarasu – water is coming”. (In Tamil I said Sarasu — thanni varudhu). She giggled and said “sir, then spurt it inside”. (In Tamil she said appo ulla peechchunga saami). With a cry of ecstasy I pumped my fluid inside her in several jets and fell exhausted on her. I went on roughing her breast for some more time till I became fully limp with exhaustion. I lied on her like this for some time.
After a few minutes she said “brother, are you happy? Now are you convinced
that you do not have any defect?” I enthusiastically said “yes, thank youvery much”. She smiled and said “I repeatedly told you that you are perfectly alright and
you should not worry unnecessarily. But you simply worried without any real
cause. Anyway I am glad that you are now feeling alright. I am happy for you”. I again sincerely thanked her and later we got up and dressed. As she was delayed in our house she only cleaned our vessels and then left for her other houses. We made mutual promise that we will not speak to anyone about what we did that day.
This happened about 20 years back. This is the only time I had fucked her. I very much desired to fuck her many more times but I did not get the courage to ask her. A few times I gave signals of my desire to her but she ignored me and she also did not show any eagerness for it. So I kept up my promise to her. Inwardly I lusted for her body very badly and so after that incident I always thought about her nude body while masturbating.
Sarasu was in our employment for about four or five years more. Her husband died due to his heavy drinking habit. She married again and we were told her second husband was a nice person. She stopped being housemaid after her second marriage. She is now running a small shop selling vegetables and other sundry items. She got further children through her second husband. I understand her children through first marriage are settled and the children through second marriage are studying.
Occasionally we buy a few things in her shop. I am now married and I have two
children, a boy and a girl. Whenever I go to her shop she will tease me by
saying “I told you that your cock is okay, but you did not believe my words –
see now two children have jumped out of it. what do you say now”. (In Tamil she would say “enna thambi – onnoda poolu jorathtaan irukkunnu naan sonnaen – aana nee nambalai – ippa paaru – onnoda poolula irundhu rendu kulandaiga velila kudhichchu irukkanga – ippo nee enna sollare”.) I would reply something and then we would have a good laugh.
I will not forget that day in my life and I will always remain thankful to her
for ever. She not only cured me of my unfounded fear about my ability to enjoy a
woman but also gave me the pleasure of my first fuck which I can never forget.
Though I could not fuck her any more, the one fuck I had with her was very
deeply satisfying to me. For me she will always remain special.
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